it was a year ago we lost our baby.
although nameless, that sweet baby is still with me.
just now, i am comfortable and confident enough to admit that i loved that baby.
i loved that baby the way i loved dash and this baby at 12 weeks.
that baby was, and still is, a symbol of hope to me.
that little baby is mine and i am no longer pretending that it was purely medical to ease my pain.
i miss that special second baby.
i think about what that time meant to me often.
and i wonder what life would have been like.
i accept that baby was not part of god's plan for us.
and although painful, i will forever appreciate having met that special little person from inside.
so baby...
i will see you again someday, and i will know exactly who you are. it was my pleasure to have known you for even a too short time. thank you for choosing me to love and learn from you. and thank you sweet baby for making me a better momma to the babies i have now.
