tonight i said my usual"rocking'" prayers that i say every night, as i slowly moved back and forth in the worlds greatest little rocking chair holding tightly on to baby noa. i did my usual. i thanked god for my eyes to see all that these babies bring, my ears that allow me to hear dash's brilliance and noa's sweet, soft, baby girl voice. i thank him nightly for those things, along with our home, our day, our health. and naturally, i thanked him for being him.
and then, last night, i caught myself adding something new.
i thanked god for making me, me. i sometimes find myself too wrapped up in the rat race. and that's lame. really. it is lame. for what ever reason, i just let my mind wander, and for once, all on its own, it was all to what i have.
not all that i could. all that i wish. or all that i think i should...
and it was such a nice change.
i know its all said often, but i am guilty of not often enough, actually living it.
so starting now, i'm going to make a true effort to...
be the best me, today.
define that all by myself.
believe it with all my heart.
and know that it's all his plan.
and tonight, big man upstairs, i'd like to add to my simple rocking prayers...
thank you also, for being patient with me, for loving me, and for this perfectly complicated little existence that is my life.
it really is beautiful.
