purpose.

 In one part of a movie i recently watched, a little boy talks about purpose...and how it makes him sad when things are broken....because they can't do what they are made to do. 

Then he makes the comparison to people. 

How we too have a purpose and sometimes we get stuck in a place (not doing what we were made to do)- and how in a sense we are "broken".

it made perfect sense to me. 

Yes, there are truly seasons where we must take jobs just to pay bills and seasons where our dreams must wait..... 

but when looking at our life purpose, what we were made to do, intended to do- 
isn't that what matters most?

at this point i know the goals i have for myself. i know what i am good at. i know what matters most to me. i know what i can do without. i know (finally) that my purpose isn't 
packaged the way so many others may be.

and i know that is ok.

i know that without some things and some people and some accomplishments, i am broken.

i also know now that in getting to the place where i can serve my purpose,

 i may have to cry, question, and really dig deep. 

but without the hurt to arrive, i will forever be waiting. 
and i refuse to ignore my purpose or to live my life "broken".